I WILL GET THERE

Shut my eyes, They like not what they see. Numbing my heart, Hurt is all it feels. Finger-sealing my ears, Noise bugs their thin drums. Oh how this day seems just to much.. Can I really bear facing its morrow? This exaggerated smile's my disguise, To that well concealed taint reality... Of a strive to grasp just a little more air, Into a chest too tight to fight once more. Surrender seems a considerable.. But realistical, a lame illict excuse.. The optted push here and shove there.. Surely did get me this far. See, there is nothing easy about this.. Crawl to that ray of sunlight, Praying hard it does not again shift. Logic left me skeptic about this tunnel... The strength that once pumped through me... The bravery that once blind the specks cowardice in me.. The limits set by selfish cares the ego within me.. All dimmed out as fast as the rear sight of the start. Though nothing dares to prove that grand final bliss.. In thoughts, I clearly envisioned.. In dreams, I really sired.. In fantasies, I surely enjoyed.. It somehow anchors my conscience to this unweary will.. You vow to await me at the end of it all.. Pumps reseliance to my sacrifice of self.. All just to see..feel.. All just to rest..sleep.. All just to forever be by You. I will get there.